From this to That

Dear Followers that really do follow, (if there even are any)
 So...I've started a tumblr instead...hoping it will be faster and easier to load pictures and stuff. Because I'm going to take this to a new level. So go here...and hope it rocks your little (or big) world.


Peace.

Burst of Creativity...

Dear Self,

I'm having a problem called I want to do too many things...www.pineterest.com I blame you.

To Do List:
1. Get a Silhouette SD
2. Make awesome shirts
3. Make awesome art
4. Take cute pictures of Elaina
5. Make cool stuff

Let's ROCK this.

*The list is really longer my mind is just blanking...of course.

And I miss these people...everybody's leaving...:(

Dear life, YOU'RE AWESOME!

This has been a long time coming...but life is great!!

I GOT A JOB!!!

And for some reason I don't really feel like blogging...lame I know. But know that life is great.

Here's a few gems from it.Me and Braeden went to see Thor.I got an IPHONE!! Woohoo.

This lovely thing is courtesy of Katie. Birthday party style...
And no better way to end than with this little cutie. :)

Growing, and the good kind.

So there are a few places and times in my life that I've felt really close to the spirit that I can really remember...EFY, in the temple, while getting father's blessings, in the bathroom at Women's Conference (weird one I know), testimony meetings, and most recently getting my patriarchal blessing.

As reflected lately in my blog posts and in my actual life...I don't know what I'm supposed to do with my life, things aren't going extremely well but things could be a lot worse. I've been thinking about getting my blessing for a really long time, but have always been really scared about it. I finally just went for it, knowing that I really could use the guidance that it has.Since I scheduled the appointment, the following has happened: I got a second interview for a job that I really hope I get, I passed all my classes and am graduating, and things are just starting to look up.

I'm really grateful for the way things are starting to go, starting because I think things are going to get better.

That's the best part of all this I think, the feeling that even though things are super great right now...they're going to be.

p.s. It's totally May now...success!

Desires dictate our priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions.
------------ Boyd K. Packer--------------

Dear Today, thanks.

So I didn't write about this yesterday...so this is a post about yesterday's today.

Dear April 27, 2011,

Today I had a job interview, and got a second one. Today I mowed the lawn, which on its own isn't great but it was super nice outside making it good. Today I played with the cutest little girl ever. Today I found out my grades and totally rocked them, so guess who is ready to graduate. I am soooo grateful for this part of my day, this semester involved A LOT of prayer. And I'm grateful.

Today, for some reason I felt like you were going to be great...stuff is starting to work out. And I'm grateful. Just one or two things left to work out. But tomorrow please let me get the job. I need it bad. And I'm grateful. I need people to celebrate with.

You've been great,
Jessica

p.s. I just read a book that Patriarchal Blessings are also for warnings, I didn't know that. Lightning bolt. I'm excited for Sunday. :)

Thankful.

Today started like any other day, I got up...finished a project, watched TV, and debated going to FHE...

I went, in a last ditch effort to make my day better, it worked. Tyler was there who is always hilarious! And Ethan, as well, pretty much everyone that went helped. It was awesome. Played volleyball with a beach ball and Tyler popped it, I thought that was going to be the highlight of my day...boy was I wrong.

Lately I've had that feeling, you know the one where you just feel like you need to cry all the time, nothing really has triggered it...though lately it feels like I have a lot to cry about. I just haven't found "a good enough reason to cry." So I haven't...

Then I started talking to Jordan, it all started with him just saying nice things:

let me shoot straight with ya, ok

you are stunningly gorgeous

you have this cool style too

its like, artist/indie/cool

you have an awesome sense of humor

YOU GOT IT GOING ON!

throw yourself out there, just a lil bit more, and go from there

i promise you turn more heads than you realize

Which of course brought us to the subject of dating, and how that currently isn't going very well, well shouldn't really be associated with how it's going actually. And he just started saying everything that I have been thinking about for what seems like forever. About what I'm supposed to do next, where I want to be in my life...just the basics.

Then it happened, I just started crying...I guess I found a good enough reason.

I am sooo grateful for that feeling, knowing He's there and loves me. I've been looking for that feeling for a while, just that's it's going to be ok. I've been kind of a downer lately. On the outside I'm really good at hiding it, which always reminds me of this song I am in love with right now Tonight, Tonight:

I don't know if I'll make it, but watch how good I'll fake it.

Kind of a lame way to go through life, so from now on I'm on a mission to not have to fake it. I'm going to go for things, I'm going to be happy and not just the fake kind.

I'm soooo grateful for Jordan, saying all the stuff I needed to hear. He's awesome!!

p.s. He loves us!! Isn't it great.

Miracles. Or something like them.

Even MIRACLES take a little time.
*Fairy Godmother*

So this is what life feels like at this exact moment, there's a magnet on our fridge that has this quote. I guess I feel like things need to be moving in the "right" direction more quickly...so patience here we go again. I know what I want it's just a matter of it happening now.

So here's to miracles, the ones I don't notice at first and the ones that are right in front of my nose.

p.s. Read Dallin H. Oaks talk Desires...love it!