discouraged...

You can't be unhappy and GRATEFUL at the same time.
Now I just gotta remember that...

p.s. Do we remember to give thanks for the blessings we receive? - Monson He's one smart guy...

Back to the Real World...I guess.

So Hawaii = Awesome as per usual. But...it would be better if a certain sister or a certain brother could have gone...maybe next year. Anyways, it was warm and wonderful got a nice tan and relaxation. Perfect.

Now to find a job...anyone, anyone? I need one super bad...but turns out I hate looking for a job. It's hard, and interviews make me so nervous. But I'm gonna find one.

Back to school...it's getting scary, my one class hasn't really had assignments you just watch these videos and write an essay...I haven't read all the chapters yet. Test one. Saturday.

Welcome to the real world.

Step one...

Open the door.

And coming in a close second...

So as of late...the number one thing I've been working on is faith. Holy hard sometimes, no job, no boy, no motivation, and school. It's tough sometimes to have faith that something is going to work, that I'm going to find an awesome job to help pay for my awesome car, that that one boy is going to realize anything, being motivated to rock something, and school blek.

Luckily, I've had all those things before so...faith shouldn't be as hard right. Still working on that one.

And in a close second, I'm working on patience. (not by my own choice of course) I already know a whole lot about it. :)

So any day now...comes the LIGHT.

I should probably tell you something...

So...this whole Life of a College Grad thing may be a little deceiving. While I did technically graduate, as in walking and stuff, I still have a few classes to finish up before I can get that little piece of paper. So here I go, in an attempt to make things even more stressful, let's take those few classes. Wheff, now that that tricky part is over...on to happier things.

Well not really I guess, I still don't have a job. I haven't really been looking to hard though, so...I should probably do something about that, though my family is going to Hawaii in like 2 weeks then I'll look real hard all the time until I find one.

My brother is officially at Boot Camp for the Marines, holy weird. I have to say it's nice to not have a smelly basement anymore. haha I miss having him around which I didn't think would happen as much as it is...now it's just me and my parents which is weird, not that Josh was home that much anyways.

New YEARS Eve, is it lame that I didn't want to go anywhere? But in an attempt to not be lame I went out anyways...I saw a lot more people I knew than I thought I would. But here's the problem, most my friends are guys (which is great, I love them) but that makes it a little difficult to meet boys when you're already with boys...so here's to me being braver, not on New Years really...but there was this one that his friend's left his number on a paper I text him? That's brave right? haha No, it's not really...oh I talked to boys at Ward Prayer, and ps Ward Prayer is basically glorified FHE, fun though.

So lately I've been really lazy, it's super dumb. But I feel like I'm stuck in this rut of nothing productive. But I'm working on it.

GUESS WHAT!? I don't have my patriarchal blessing...which isn't the good part but I got a recommend to get one!!!! WOOHOO. I'm super excited, I need one real bad and I really shouldn't have waited this long. And I renewed my temple recommend...so let the spiritual-ness just flow. Woot.

Sam's back!!! I missed that girl! Hopefully good times will flow immediately.

My sister is having another baby too!! Woohoo. Hopefully it's another girl...or else poor Raul (I don't know how to spell it, but ask my sister to spell/say it for you)


Ok, that's all. Thanks.

Turn Around

So I'm ready for that point in life where everything turns around and starts working again...I think it's starting. Some things are going well, so that's a start right?

In an effort to not be such a downer I've been trying to think of all the things I have to be grateful for, I mean "Our life's are blessed in countless ways." (Monson) So why not live it up. So starting now positive blogging will occur. I still haven't taken any pictures...Brady got some but frankly I haven't even seen those yet.

So TURN AROUND, I'm over here.

Stressed. Overwhelmed. Worried. But I got this.

After winter comes summer.
After night comes dawn.
And after every storm,
there comes CLEAR OPEN SKIES.
***** Samuel Rutherford*****

There will be NOTHING that will destroy us.
*****Thomas S. Monson*****